After the Storm Comes the Rainbow 🌈 (PART 2)

Life in Maher is near to perfect, compared to my primary school where I always get teased by the boys because my skin is not fair and I'm not pretty like other girls 😡 Sometimes I think why people have to discriminate skin color like white means pretty and black means ugly ?? I still remember how it feels to be unwanted and having small circle of friends.  I don't really have clique, though because I am always left behind but there are some true friends that made my day in primary school better. Primary school should be fun but somehow certain persons made it awful but it does not mean I didn't have any good memories. I do and those good memories are what I cherish the most 😃

Another series of life I had gone through since I was little is Perkhemahan Cuti Sekolah (PCS) PERMATApintar 💕 !! One of the best camps I have ever joined. It started when I was 10, a tiny little girl being sent to a summer camp 400 km away from her parents for 3 weeks 😵 ! 3 awesome weeks every year since 2010 to 2015 ! While I'm writing this, I can feel my level of excitement peak 😆 How can I describe how wonderful those camps are? Maybe in my further post I can share my experience going through this camp every December. Most of my friends I made is from these camps and yes, I gained a lot of friends and fun experience that I'll never forget.

Okay, here is where the storm starting to blow away my dream 🌀  In 2014, again, I joined PCS for the fifth time in course Penyelesaian Masalah Matematik (PMM). Most of my colleagues are 15 years old while I'm 14. Most of the participants who did well in the final assesment during this camp will be extracted into the program (high school program) at Kolej PERMATApintar and it had been my dream especially to skip a year. Unfortunately, my dream crumbled because I didn't get chosen 😢 To be honest, my heart did breaks, I did cry because most of my close friends and people I know for years, get a place in the college. I was totally devastated but I encourage myself that I still have chance and there must be a good reason behind what happened 😊 I took some time to recover, a little bit emotional there because I am still young but my parents, although I know they too have high hopes for me getting admitted, they gave me moral support and encouraged me that it was okay, that I had done my best, that there is more good things to come, that it is not the end ❤

So I enjoy another year in Maher and on this year (PT3 year) I did most memorable things with THE ERUDITES ( my 3 Sina clan) 💞. Honestly, it was one of the best years as we went to trip to Terengganu together, organized programs, went to competitions, represented school to debate and even won best speakers award ! There are so many good moments in 2015 that made me feel grateful for not getting the offer and I feel like I want to spend my days at Maher until I finish high school 🙌However, I get to join the camp again in 2015, my last camp because 15 years old is the age limit. As usual, I had fun and participated like anyone else. Most of the participants are at my age too so I don't really feel insecure instead I had a very great time with my coursemates ✌

I got Advanced Physics this time and we combined with my previous year course, PMM. That year was quite melancholic, though because it was my final year joining the camp and I felt like, wow... I am really going to miss this place so much, a place where I made so many friends and memories, where I learnt a lot, a place where I think I belong and people understand me 😭 That year, again, I had to go through UKM 3 (the final assessment) and interview. I did my best but I did not put too much hope like I did in the previous year. On my last day, it felt really heartbreaking 💔 especially to leave my friends but we promised each other to keep in touch. Alhamdulillah, on that final year, I got the offer. To be honest, I was over the moon and immediately accept the offer without consulting anyone except my parents 😌 Although it looked like a false move but because my parents and I agreed on the same thing, it turned out to be one of the best decision Allah set up for me... 🌌

To be continued...