But when I sleep, it's hard to wake up unless if my mom wake me up. Why? I wanted to wake up, so bad. Thus, I don't know whether this is a special ability or it also happens to anyone else, I can know whether I'm dreaming or not..
Ever watched divergent? It is just the same like Beatrice Prior who got into the simulation and when she experienced something awful while in the simulation she realised that it is not real and that's what really happened to me just that Beatrice can control her dream like finding other ways to get out from that situation but I can't. What I could do is when I realised that it is a dream, I try to wake up but most of the time I can't wake up. My eyes are really hard to open, my body gets stiff and sometimes I couldn't speak and sweat a lot. Usually if I am able to wake up, my back will ache so bad and I am still confused whether I'm still dreaming or not. I even have double dreams like I woke up in a dream and other dreams will continue. Sometimes I got 3-4 dreams with the same cycle and it is so exhausting.
Some examples of my dream that I wanted to share who knows if someone can translate my dream, lol. Firstly, I am really really scared like phobia like really freaked out with worms and cockroaches like omg I can faint if those things get on me and unfortunately I dreamt of it. One person is going to scare the out of me by chasing me with those worms and I cried, like I can feel like I am really scared and I realized that it's just a dream so I tried to wake up but I can't so what I do is sit on the floor, turn myself into a ball, like umm hug myself so tightly, and the dream was gone. The other one that I can remember is my little brother who is going to kill me and I can feel he stabs me with a knife but realizing that he is a sweetheart I know that it is a dream.
Today is worse because I had many dreams and I am trying to wake up but I can't until my mom wake me up at 12.30 p.m. I slept at 11 a.m, my first dream is about me eating a cooked egg that contains things like nails, thumbtacks, tiny toys like santau ok scary and when I realised that it is a dream, I try to wake up but I think I can but actually I wake up in a dream, then I look at the window and I could see war, fire, but when I think back, it's not possible and I know bad things happen in a dream so I try to wake up again but this time is harder and I had to roll back and forth to wake up but I think I woke up for real this time but I'm too tired so I go back to sleep and then I dream that I woke up and eat some tempe (padahal harini puasa) so I was really shook and I ran out from my bed, crying saying that "Alamak tak igt puasa macam mana ni?" to my family who already sitting on the dining table waiting to break fast. I asked them "pukul berapa?" And they said "nak berbuka dah" and I think wth it's impossible that I sleep sampai nak dekat maghrib so I try to wake up again. The next dream I couldn't remember but luckily my mom wake me up, but I woke up, sweating and still in confusion.
This things happen many time, but everytime I wanted to wake up, all my limbs get stiff, I couldn't even open my eyes but I know, I am aware that it is just a dream. Because of that, awful dreams do not really scare me it's just make me super lethargic. Maybe I am mentally tired or maybe you can share some science explanation or research about this? It will be cooler if I can control the dream lol because I realized it is a dream just that I couldn't proceed with a better next step. Hahahaaha thank you if you read what I wrote till the end, maybe you might think that this is nonsense and maybe this happens because I read to many fantasy books and watch too many movies. I should have a dream journal, shouldn't I?
Nice :)
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